Day of thoughts. Too many thoughts really..
I'm not sure how to feel. Today I had the feeling of unhappiness. Depressed. I just wanted to cry and I'm not sure why. I just thought of everything that wasn't good. Why am I here? There's nothing exciting. Sure I like to make others feel good and laugh..but what about me? I just don't know.
Having thoughts of missing my little baby rabbit as well - that just seemed to be the cherry on top to make me feel worse.
Come to think of it...ever since I lost mojito..I feel different. Not a good different. Emptiness.
I want to feel happy again. I just don't know how..
And being with Marvin always makes me happy but I feel like I need more. That doesn't seem right....like when I'm with him I'm happy but when I'm not..i just feel down.
I don't want to feel like this. Like I'm worthless. Empty. Sad.
I want to be happy again.
Tonight I'm going to pray and seek God for guidance. I hope to find the real reason why I felt this way today..and sadly continue to do so..
Yours truly,
Ro.
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